Well hello there! What started as a blog post during her first month of life, has completely come to a standstill. Here we are… two and a half months later and I am hoping to have a little time to give an update to my new life with a newborn.
Well I can’t believe that I am writing a post on my little princess… yes, she is a princess! she has everyone wrapped around her finger and she’s only a few months old! Time has honestly flown by but yet it has felt so longgggg. I don’t think you are ever really prepared for motherhood… as least the first time around. It’s crazy how it takes time to adjust to the idea of being pregnant, and all the preparation it takes from you… physically, mentally and emotionally. Then one day your life just all changes, you leave home and come back with this tiny human.
It is hard to not lose yourself as you become a new mom. It is crazy how your newborn depends on you so so much. I knew that having a baby would be demanding but I didn’t think it would be that demanding, from the breastfeeding to the long sleepless nights it doesn’t stop. There has been so many ups and downs… having experienced postpartum depression alongside being a new mom is definitely something that I wasn’t expecting. I will dedicate a whole blog post on PPD, as well as sharing the birth story and why we picked the name we picked.
ADJUSTING TO LIFE WITH A NEWBORN – MY PRECIOUS LITTLE GIRL
I know this is totally a basis thing to say but she is the most beautiful girl!! Like I can’t deal with how adorable she is. Kensington Rose (we call her Kensi) has grown and changed so much in the last three months. The first while you are literally just winging it… you don’t know her… you don’t know what she is like. You just do the same things, feed, change and sleep. It is crazy that right from the start they like things a certain way, for example how they want to be carried…where they prefer to sleep. As time went on, I just got to know her more and her habits, which made things easier. After a lot of struggles dealing with colic’s and reflux and countless doctor appointments… things are getting better.
Kensi is such a happy girl! she is constantly smiling and trying to laugh. She is learning something new every day and I am the proudest mama ever! It’s amazing the things that we take for granted… and for a newborn is like a whole new challenge. She is so attentive and analysis everything! she has quickly learned where certain sounds come from. It amazes me the things that she learns and how she develops so fast.
Motherhood hasn’t been easy… it is truly super hard, and I don’t know how single parents do it!! It is the most demanding job and there are no breaks. The overwhelming love and exhaustion. How physically, emotionally and mentally it is to take care of a helpless life. Putting her needs above my own. Constantly doubting myself and asking shouldn’t this be easier. Yet I look at her and know it’s all worth it. The fourth trimester is something that isn’t really talked about, and yet it is the hardest in all aspects. I wouldn’t be where I am today… in a happier, calmer and more patient way if it wasn’t for the love and support from my family and friends.
Now, how do I manage a newborn and keeping up with my platforms!? which is something that brings me fulfilment. I don’t really know… we just need to tackle sleeping and naps and hopefully that gives me sometime to focus on me. As well as setting up for our first Christmas, can’t believe it’s just around the corner! Hopefully I will be able to fit into some of the dresses I bought last year. I did a blog post last year on ‘CHRISTMAS DRESSES ON A BUDGET‘. Fingers cross something fits!
If you want to see more pictures and videos of little Kensi make sure to check out my Instagram account. That is all for now… until next time where I plan on having a post on my baby essential and products I am loving.